I'm All A'Twitter

    Tweet on Twitter

    Thursday, September 21, 2006


    I had a couple of things floating around in my head today to blog about. I had lunch with my cousin who is 7 years younger than me. Her husband came with us and we started a discussion about addictions. They are both very physically fit, but both smoke. They've tried several times to quit but haven't been successful.

    They don't understand the overeating issue that I have so I tried to explain it. I told them that I have no mental control over what I eat and that I use my weight as protection from being seen as a sexual being. My cousin asked me why and I told her about the sexual abuse. I assumed that she knew since these kinds of things get around families pretty quick. She was horrified and said she never had any idea that had happened to me. I was amazed at how easy it was for me to tell her. Every time I mention it, it gets easier. I don't feel as ashamed as I have in the past.

    I believe that we all have addictions whether it be smoking, drugs, alcohol, food, sex, shopping or gambling. I think everyone I know has at least one of these problems. I just hope I can overcome mine.


    Manny said...

    I smoke. I smoke way too much. I have over come a few addictions in my life. I use to party all the time, every day. That got me in some trouble.

    BTW, You are one of the coolest blogger's I know.

    cadbury_vw said...

    weight carries a stigma in our society that is only starting to be overcome

    it always amazes me how people who've smoked for years can get all on their high horse about weight



    i'm glad for you that it is becoming easier to talk about your abuse

    the healing process is a long one and may never be complete, but the steps you've taken are so positive

    i'm happy for you

    The Savage said...

    Two weeks as of 9:30 or so tonight... that's two week without smoking...
    I am not gonna give you the if I can do it you can do it schpeal because that is a huge crock of shit... You will get over your addiction when it suits you.. not because someone else can do it...

    Think happy thoughts... you know.. like.... Roy!

    Kristen said...

    Addictions are deadly.......I admire those who can overcome them

    tina said...

    Very interesting thoughts! I'm glad you are finding it easier to talk about the abuse.

    I do think that some people have addictive personalities.

    I hope you won't mind if I ask a question. I am curious about you
    overcoming the food addiction. I know the surgery will be a great start and the initial weight loss will probably motivate you - not to mention that physically you will be limited in what and how you eat. But, the root of the problem is emotional so I was wondering if once you have the surgery, will you undergo counseling? How does all that work? I hope I am not being too nosey - I am geuinely interested. I hope you will blog about the process.

    Nonny said...

    I'm glad it's becoming easier for you to talk about. You have nothing to be ashamed of. I have several addictions, coffee, cigarettes, M&Ms, pot. I use to have a really bad cocaine addiction but I did overcome that about 10 years ago. Just can't seem to quit the others. I concur that we all have some kind of addiction.

    Top cat said...

    I'm glad you are coming to grips with your past honey.
    You are beautiful whether you are overweight or skinny.
    Take care of yourself.

    gab said...

    I have blocked my abuse. I know that it happened because it comes back at me in bits and pieces and both my sisters were too. I am very luck to have a hubby who has understood my "fear" of sex. and has stood by me for 32 years and counting. I know I should go to a therapist but I dont have the money and about the time I get started something else will come up. I have talked to one who says that why I can handle it all it will all come flooding back. In the mean time bits and pieces will have to do. I think this might be why Im very over weight!

    barman said...

    You know it is so easy for someone that does not have that addiction to either not understand it or make lite of it. I share the addiction to food and I have seen some of what you say about it and I so agree with that for me. Smoking amazes me. Not that someone can not quit. Heck I think I heard that over the last little bit the cigerete companies are increasing the nicotean making them more addictive. But what I do not understand is why people start in the first place.

    I am glad you are more easily able to deal with your past. Doing this will probably help with the eating addiction.


    Wenchy said...

    You make perfect sense. I can totally relate to what you wrote.

    Thank you.

    Manny said...

    Where are you? I hope all is well.

    ell said...

    addictions suck!

    i'm addicted to food too. and the worst part is you can't quit cold turkey like cigarettes, cuz you have to eat every day. every time you put something in your mouth, it's a struggle to stop the overindulgence from kicking in, at least for me. i hope the the surgery gives you a kick start and helps you overcome your problem.