I learned a lesson yesterday. Never, ever to make my famous chocolate chip cookies. They proved to be too much to withstand my willpower of steel. I'm beating myself up big time today about it but know that today is a new day despite the fact that I f*cked up yesterday.
I also learned that I don't have dumping syndrome that is associated with Roux En Y gastric bypass surgery patients consuming too much sugar. You all might think that is a good thing since I don't have to worry about hurling every time I imbibe in all that is sugary sweetness, but you would be wrong. I was hoping to have dumping syndrome to keep my sweet tooth in check. If you know you are going to spew forth whatever you eat, you will be conditioned not to suffer the consequences.
Every single post operative weight loss patient I've ever talked to told me not to even try sugar. I heeded this advice for more than a year. I was afraid to know. What I realized was that it really wasn't feasible for me to go my entire life never eating anything with sugar in it again. I want to live my life as normally as someone can who has made the decision to rearrange their gastrointestinal tract.
So, today I will try to quell the feelings of self loathing caused by the old feelings of overeating. I plan on loving myself despite my indescretions with sugar.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
The Promise Of A New Day
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Sign, you are in control. You are going to be just fine. Learn from it and move on. You have done wonderful so far and you have a bright future ahead for you.
Welcome to reality sweetheart. Seriously, everyone stumbles here and there. You are NORMAL! You did it, you learned from it, and you walk forward from here.
Just take it one hour at a time sweetie. You will be ok. And no need to hate yourself over it. Just don't bake those cookies again. :)
HUGS girlie
We tend to be so black and white in our thinking don't we? Try allowing yourself to be human.
ok, it was a lesson. definitely don't beat yourself up. you've done so incredibly well all along. look at the big picture not the small bump along the way.
I'm so impressed that it took you this long to have a little slip up. I've already tried a couple of sugary treats - and I don't seem to have dumping syndrome either.
I know how you feel though - the thought of it making me sick was going to be a way to train myself into moderation - or at least very small portions very rarely... but nope... didn't get that... so I have to train myself the hard way.
Yes you do have will power of steel. Perhaps a different kind of sugar? *kisses* … LOL ... made ya smile!
I tried it, in moderation, and I don't dump either. After making all those cookies during the holidays, I learned I could have 1 or 2, but after that did feel a little strange; no "dumping" though. It is enough to keep me in check, so I can understand why you wish for the restriction.
You can't change what happened yesterday, but as long as you pick yourself up now, forgive yourself, and move forward, you'll be fine.
If confessing makes you feel better, then go for it! :)
Lastly, don't you think healthy people make choices to endulge from time-to-time. Start saying that you are "making the choice to be _____" instead of, "I can't have ______". Because now that you've takes that scrumptious cookie sweetness, you do have choice. And in one way, how cool is that???? It's always choice.
*hugs* Now quit feelin' bad and move on. :) You'll be okay. (and I mean that in the most empathetic way.)
After that snow we got last night, I'm sure you worked off those cookies shoveling! Nothing to worry about, you've made such progress so far!
And about my blogging the pizza combos, man I just love those things! For some reason, we get them whenever we go for a drive.
Oh man...that dumping syndrome is something else. I've know a couple of people that had it. One lady couldn't even eat because it was so bad even with natural sugars.
Well I hope you enjoyed your cookie. So why don't you think you're normal? You're as normal as anyone I've ever known ;o)
We ALL indulge from time to time and it's quite normal.
We're all only human.
This has to do with food, or anything ELSE that might be something that we know we shouldn't be doing....but yet....do it anyway from time to time.
You just gotta be really good the next day.
So, you're attitude is right on track.
Tomorrow is always a new day.
One little slip-up does NOT ruin the rest of your tomorrows.
With me sugar is one of those things that don't always bother me. Guess it depends what I have put in my tummy prior to the sugar. I don't up chuck when I eat sugar. Sometimes it just makes me feel yucky and sometimes it just comes out the other end. We are not perfect. Today is a new day and we have forever to learn a life time of mistakes and habits. I know I'm still learning! Have a good Valentines day sexy lady! Susy :)
Oh, I'm sorry to hear about the cookies, Jen. Everyone has more or less compliant days. I was really bummed about gaining weight with the stomach bug - but it was to be expected I guess, ridin' full freight on the carb train, as I was (and still am). But at the doctor's, I was just two lbs above my all-time (to this point) low. So it will all work out in the end. Don't give up or beat up on yourself.
*S*
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